20/9

The most strange thing at this moment is, while I am having sorrow and is depressed, everything runs just as nothing has happened. Life goes on. I still live the same. Though sometimes I still weep on bed.

I mark this moment on my notes, looking forward to see how would I think after months or years later.

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I have never adhered to any kinds of religion. It's just that I didn't see the need.

When something happen in your life, you would start to think about it, then you would doubt it. You probably would scold the one on the Books, why does He have to make us suffer?

I really don't have a clue.

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The feeling is just so real, so intense.

Only after the moment you realize you have lost something would you start to regret. No matter what I thought I have done right, they are all wrong. And this could be already a point-of-no-return.

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I am living in Amsterdam, a European old city, trying to live the fullest.

And while I am trying, I have already lost so many things.



Goodnight Amsterdam, would you give me some love tomorrow?

first day in europe

This is my first day in Amsterdam. I can't say everything is really fine, but as long as I am settled, there is not much problem.

 

Haven't been to Europe before and this is my first time, first day. Can't say its a "wow" experience, and everything is like "that's it?". But I guess really that's it. We are all human and we don't have anything really different.

 

But the architecture is still really nice.

 

I don't have class today, so I planned to do some paperwork and buy something I need. Hard to say it's a good start, as I wasted a lot of time wondering in the streets without buying something I really need (bikes) and doing paperworks (without going to the IND, but did go to register in the town hall).

 

Some of the things in my luggage have to be thrown, and my brand new laptop was scratched like hell as well.

 

I still haven't recover from jetlag, but I guess it's the same feeling as I usually had when I was irregular in my sleep routine so it's fine. Watched 4 films on the long flight. 21 ways to ruin a marriage, L'Écume des jours, viaggio sola, library wars.

 

Have a homework due today and miss it. This is foreseeable long ago, so I couldn't do anything but accept it.

 

Haven't had any chance to do city tour, but hopefully would do it this weekend. And I'm also gonna register for some culture and sport courses.

 

Do everything to make this stay fruitful.